Hello friends! Sorry it's been so long. My Mom has turned a corner and is doing so so so much better. Thank you all for your very sweet comments and support! ((hugs)) to you all!!! Oh gosh, the relief I feel. *sigh* It's crazy...she was so fragile just a few days ago...but that will to live is fierce and STRONG! Wow. I have had a very hard couple of weeks. I won't lie. I have had many days where tears flow like my breath...easily and effortlessly. You know...I think that is good. Crying is not weakness. I think in those tears you let go of everything. I am still feeling emotionally fragile though...but the strength is there. I have learned that when I need it to pull out the stops...I am strong. But for now I have to just take it easy. So today, I will. It's lunch with a dear friend and a very needed manicure. Funny how good it feels to have nicely painted nails.
So yes, today is a quite day. I picked up my camera this morning...the first time in weeks I shot "for me". Not shooting for a client. I will say, I have pretty much lost my desire to shoot for fun. I guess I am suffering from the curse of the professional photographer. I hope it won't last long. But I struggled even taking these photos this morning. I don't "feel it" like I used to. And that's OK too...the feeling will come back.
I am glad that I decorated my home early this year. I had all my decorations up (even the tree!) the day after Thanksgiving. I like getting all the decorations done early...it takes the pressure off a bit. I am almost done xmas shopping too. It's easier with older kids...they seem to want less. BUT the stuff they do want is waaaaaay more expensive! YIKES! It's funny going to Target this time of year...no need to cruise the toy aisles. And no, I don't miss that. And I am also excited that polly pockets are no longer wanted...I hated all those little "parts" that get lost 4 seconds after the toy comes out of the box.
Anyway...what else? Oh, I am loving Michael Buble! Yes...I mean that. Like, I totally adore him. My girls and I watched his Home for the Holidays special the other night. It warmed my heart (really, it did). I am so corny I know...but it was nice to sit in front of the fire with my kids and watch him sing. He seems to be such a good wholesome boy...LOL... Good lord...what is happening to me!!!???!!! I even bought his new Christmas CD. Damn.
Alright...I gotta go and get another cup of coffee. Thanks for stopping by and reading my rambles. I do hope to be back here a bit more often. Yeah, I said that over a week ago too...we'll see.