Truth.
Sometimes the truth feels lonely or scary. Especially in those moments when you realize that the life you are living is not a truthful (or authentic) one. What I mean by that is...when you are going about your life and you have everything you need and want, but still feel like something is wrong, missing or just not right. It's then that you have to find your truth.
For awhile I just surrounded myself with material crap that I thought would make me feel better. That could not have been farther from the truth! And when I began to discover what was right for me...the buying stopped (well, it has drastically slowed down...I am a girl after all! And do like to purchase something pretty now and again).
So why write about this today? Not sure...but last Sunday I took a meditation class and the instructor kept telling us over and over to step into our light and follow our truth. Easier said than done. But I realize that is what I did over that past 21/2 years. I got really fucking honest with myself and slowly began making changes in my life. I began following my heart and listening...really listening to that inner voice. It was the scariest thing I ever did too. A part of me died...but I discovered a whole new side of myself I never knew existed. I lost some friends along the way, I hurt some people too (not intentionally), and I cried a lot...I mean, I could have filled a bathtub with my tears. But in the end, I found this very strong and capable woman too...and that is pretty incredible.
Anyway...
I share this today as hope...hope for anyone going though changes, hope for anyone who knows that they are not being honest with them self, and hope for those who might have just begun their journey in finding truth. A journey in truth is mind blowing, but beautiful in that very raw and real way. And soon you will experience "things" or meet people along the way that will help you. Doors WILL open and happiness will be restored. And that's pretty fucking amazing!
Be brave and shine on!
xoxo
20 comments:
It's wonderful how the universe works, your words are just what I needed to hear today, thank you!
It sounds as though life has really been a struggle for you. I went through this in my 20's and 30's but settled into who I really in my early 40's. I too cut loose friendships and simply spent time discovering myself. Best thing I ever did.
being honest with oneself can hurt! a lot! but it has to be the first step in self-realization and moving on to bigger and better thing. so kudos to you for taking that step! :)
Beautiful post, thank you for sharing your beauty with us in photos and in words. I am going through some shifts in my life, some sort of "forced" and some that I am making fully aware and with intention. I think so many of us get caught up in surviving that we forget to thrive. I am excited to say I am on the journey of become more and more authentic, living from a truer part of my soul and excited to be doing a year long workshop on it!
I belive it takes courage to really slow and listen, then act upon those messages our lives give us..
Thank You for sharing and the inspiration
So true! If you stop being true to yourself, to your own nature and try and mask it or be something else, unhappiness is the certain result. And unhappiness leads to so many other negative aspects. But being in the light, hearing your own voice and actually paying attention...scary and risky at times...but well worth doing!
Sounds like your journey has made you stronger and wiser -- congrats!
It is a fine thing to follow a path that fits you.
Wonderful inspiration, Caroline! And congrats on your new job! That's awesome! xo
Thank you for sharing this call to be brave in truth!
So happy for you, Caroline!
We're all 'work in progress', let's continue to evolve & discover~
Hi, I popped over from Sherry's blog, Portobella Lane. (Beautiful new look!) Your post resonated with me, because I'm in that evolving process myself, with all of its joys and tears. Haven't quite figured out how to listen to my heart yet, not too sure what it's trying to tell me, but this is going to be my year!! Thanks for the validation that it's worth it!
Beautiful images.
This is beautiful!! Your journey so resonates with mine. Yes - shine on!
It's difficult to be yourself when surrounded by life and what it brings to you. Like your blog says, we are constantly evolving. Being able to evolve and find our authentic selves is part of the process of life, I guess.
the universe and our guts are really amazing....but too often our hearts and heads get in the way.
living an authentic life is a gift the not many people can say they know anything about.....and sometimes, a person's authentic self is tangible.
it's really spectacular who we all are and who we're willing to be in this thing called "our life"
xo
So very true! When we walk through darkness the light does come again and we are stronger for it. We are somehow transformed into a stronger more glorious self. I am so happy for you. I know you have struggled and not you can dance.
Dear Carolin,
a beautiful work!
Wish you a wonderful week
Hugs
Yvonne
the journey is never a straight path but a winding road of deep roots, mud and fallen trees ... bit then, after many many years the ride starts to become more comfortable ... congrats!
A beautiful new life awaits anyone who is willing to do the work, get honest with themselves, and deal with their shit. It's the only way.
This is real and true, and I feel I can totally relate with this right now. I find that I fill voids, questions, uncertainty with items. Cause they fill that hole for a short time, but then you just have to keep doing it. I've been trying to figure out what the uncertainty is for some time, but it helps to know others have this same feeling.
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