Oh wow...what a trip! Hotter than hades that's for sure! I truly did forget what heat and humidity felt like!
Anyway, I have a gazillion pictures to process and go through...which is fun yet time consuming! I am kicking myself for taking all jpegs :( I didn't bring my computer and only had one memory card. I thought, it shouldn't be that much of a difference if I shoot all large jpegs versus RAW. Wrong! Grrrrrr... There is a BIG difference! But oh well...live and learn right?
So many things on this trip that impacted my life... Realizing that my Dad and I will NEVER have a relationship. I hated every minute I was with that man. Every single minute. But you know, it's fine...I have felt that way for as long as I can remember and made peace with it long ago. Of course I was hoping things might be different...that was the purpose of the trip. But nope...if anything, it was worse. And so be it. He's not the type of person who can be a Father.
On the other hand, Mr. Virgo is an incredible Father and watching him with the kids filled my heart. At least my kids have a dedicated Father who loves them and cherishes every moment they are near. And that is good. And I loved watching my kids run around in nature! That really did fill me with peace.
Here are the highlights:
Alrighty, lot's of laundry, grocery shopping and tasks to be done! I will catch up with y'all real soon ;)
xoxo
Anyway, I have a gazillion pictures to process and go through...which is fun yet time consuming! I am kicking myself for taking all jpegs :( I didn't bring my computer and only had one memory card. I thought, it shouldn't be that much of a difference if I shoot all large jpegs versus RAW. Wrong! Grrrrrr... There is a BIG difference! But oh well...live and learn right?
So many things on this trip that impacted my life... Realizing that my Dad and I will NEVER have a relationship. I hated every minute I was with that man. Every single minute. But you know, it's fine...I have felt that way for as long as I can remember and made peace with it long ago. Of course I was hoping things might be different...that was the purpose of the trip. But nope...if anything, it was worse. And so be it. He's not the type of person who can be a Father.
On the other hand, Mr. Virgo is an incredible Father and watching him with the kids filled my heart. At least my kids have a dedicated Father who loves them and cherishes every moment they are near. And that is good. And I loved watching my kids run around in nature! That really did fill me with peace.
Here are the highlights:
- Reconnecting with my step brother who is so amazing and wonderful...that alone was worth the trip!
- Lazy dragonflies sitting on clothes pins that let me photograph them in abundance
- Fresh watermelon that we picked right off the farmers wagon
- Daisy the 3 legged dog that my kids fell in love with
- Easy does it attitude...cuz you can't go fast in that kind of heat
Alrighty, lot's of laundry, grocery shopping and tasks to be done! I will catch up with y'all real soon ;)
xoxo
26 comments:
I am loving the watermelon shot!
I understand feelings that go with crappy "dads"...
Just being OK with it lets it get easier ... not as bad a let down I guess...
glad your back!
Trina
www.mommeville.com
btw... what camera and lens do you use I have a nikon d80 and I am long time ready to move on to a canon mark II 5d!
Wonderful images,Daisy is a cutie, give her a belly rub for me.
Curious as to your location, as for the heat and humidity, it been hot as hades here for the past few weeks.
Sorry to hear about your and your fathers relationship, or lack of, I can soo relate, seems my father and I didn't speak for about 15 years, it took all I had to attend his funeral a few years back.
Sadly, we can pick our friends, but not our family.
Peace
I love your style so. I have the same relationship with my dad, so I can relate. Thanks for sharing
Looking forward to seeing those pictures. Glad that you had a terrific time :)
Caroline, I am so glad you had tried with your Dad, and maybe you will have some closure now. Your family and the peace you got from them is what really matters, I can not wait to see all your pics, I love the old house with the kids in the photo. beautiful. Glad you are home safe and sound. hugs my friend. take care.
Oh My Great shots... lovely place
Thanks for eveything my dear!
Glad your trip went well, even if not everything you hoped for came to pass. Great photos! Looking forward to seeing more.
as long as you can say at least you tried..that is a good thing.
beautiful shots and who couldn't fall in love with those gorgeous eyes?
Welcome home, Caroline...
I love the images you've shared.
And - you have done what you could with this relationship with your father. In that sense, it was so worth it...to know....
Peace,
Lance
Welcome back!
Wonderful pics....my faves were Daisy and the watermelon shots.
I have a good relationship with my own Dad but I do know what you mean as my kids' father was a lousy Dad. Before I left him all those years ago, the kids had witnessed a lot of violence towards me plus he had never bothered to develop a father/child bond with them. When he passed away nearly two years ago, it was tough on the kids, as they realised that any chance of hearing the words 'I'm sorry for not being a better father' was gone.
I think that whatever you have with your father is the relationship you have... it just may be a distant one. I think those of us that had far from perfect relationships with our parents always long for something else.
AND there is a lot of turning it over, and accepting "My mom or dad are who they are. Now that I'm an adult, I can either parent myself or find adoptive parents for me."
It's tough... luckily you had a nice photographic distraction.
I'm glad you made it through your trip alive... sometime these family things can be crazy.
Welcome Home!
Yes, sometime it is better to move out and let go of a relationship. I didn't have one with my dad, but until I met the 3 that grew up with him I didn't realize how lucky I was.
Love the dragonfly and watermelon.
Maybe sometime you can explain a little about the difference between jpeg and raw. I have avoided raw, but I know that it is better for professional photographers to use for altering. At least I think this is the case. I thought it took more memory than jpeg though. I really have alot to learn.
I had a very similar relationship with my Dad. I would keep trying, ever hopeful that things would be different THIS time. I finally came to terms with the fact that we worked better at arms length. It's difficult to come to terms with, I know.
Your dragonfly shot puts my recent feeble effort to shame.
And, I too have fallen in love with Daisy. What an adorable face!
Incidentally, those watermelon shots had my mouth watering. Literally. Yum!
Glad to hear you had a good time regardless. Welcome back.
take your time...don't worry about catching up !
seriously, i think summer slows all of us down when it comes to blogging....thank god....since it means we're all living instead....RIGHT !
the photos are great....that dog, oh what a sweetheart
oops....and the relationship with your dad...i'm so sorry it's not what you want it to be....and how lucky your children are to have what they have....
Welcome back! What a treasure trove of photos here. Love this blue-eyed dog! So good to hear what a great guy your step-bro is!
The dragonfly picture is amazing!
xo Erin
Sometimes relationships are not tenable.
Very fine photos.
I love Daisy! I have a soft spot in my heart for disabled animals. Sorry about the dad thing, but I learned long ago that sometimes water is thicker than blood.
Glad you had a good trip!
Caroline, your trip was a mixture of bitter and sweet, like all of Life. Fortunately I have two parents that are as loving as can be, but my issue was with my Uncle who was very distant and recluse. One summer day I was in my Grandmother's basement ( Uncle lived next door) and I found in the dark back corner, Christmas presents from me and my family to him..unopened and spanning about 5 years!! It really opened my eyes to the person he was and that though some people come labeled as family, that it is just a term that can carry no more power than say, the local mailman.
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Caroline, I so appreciate the lessons you learned about family. Letting go of some of it, embracing more of it. Your photos are wonderful, as always. Don't you just love dragonflies. Native Americans say they are sign of transformation, big time! Perhaps for you? xo
woo hoo! so glad you had a blast! and welcome back!
and these shots are AMAZING!!!!
and try to avoid spending time with dad. gah! at least that is what i would do.
Welcome home! I'm sorry things didn't take a turn for the better with your father but at least you had a good time with your step-brother.
I think I've fallen in love with Daisy too!
What a trip! I'm sorry things are like that with your dad, but sometimes separate is much better.
And I love these photos, most especially the watermelon! Fantastic!
Fabulous!
Love this set of photos...
xo
Andrea
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