As I sit with my eyes closed trying to find some stillness I realize that I have no idea...
...and I wonder...
- what I am doing with my life sometimes
- at the end of the day, did I make a difference?
- that sometimes nothing makes sense
- why do I try so hard?
- what is really important?
- why are we here?
- is our existence just some crazy experiment dreampt up in someone's head?
- where the hell am I going?
- why am I so utterly confused
- why can't I focus at the moment
- why nothing seems to be within my reach...
So I will not even attempt to answer these questions...for there are no correct answers. Instead, I will sit a bit longer with my eyes closed and let the thoughts pass through like visitors at a museum. Looking at the exhibits, and moving right along...
Welcome to my world today... *smiles*
Take a peek...I am blooming 365 days in 2010
18 comments:
ugh. i have these same thoughts constantly, and then i yell at myself and tell myself to CHILL and try to enjoy life more. oy.
i think those are questions we all ask ourselves most of the time...especially mothers !
it's hard to be validated as a mom....and then we add wife and sister and daughter into the mix and no wonder there are days we just want to hold our heads in our hands and ask WHAT or WHY or WHEN ???
sending hugs from someone who feels it, too !
i've been mulling the same questions lately. it's comforting to know i'm not the only one.
I think we all have these feelings sometimes, maybe with Spring will come a change for you. When you say you sometimes question your purpose, it reminds me of if we wonder why we are we sometimes forget just to be. Maybe right now you are doing something very special that you don't even know, but will come back to you ten fold. Maybe someone you smiled at or left a comment too. I question all the time, what is my purpose, why did I have to get this stupid condition that causes me to fall down when I laugh, and you no what there are no answers. I am learning just to be happy everyday not for what is ahead but for right now....I must be tired I am rambling, but I only ramble to people I care about! Big hug and better days.
Life can be so peaceful... and yet so confusing... IT so much depends on what we decide to take : The easy or the no-answer-to-be found-path,,,
If i reached here so will YOU!
questions inspire us each step of the way, lovely and thought provoking post.
hmm....many of us are struggling with these questions..maybe its spring, maybe being mothers, I like your idea of sitting quietly and allowing the questions to be asked...take care..thanks for expressing these very questions..
I wonder the same things and it looks like you're not alone here after reading the other comments.
All I can do is keep on keeping on.
Caroline,
Wow, it really feels like we are on the same page today. I wrote about how life can seem like a muddled grey mess sometimes. (and that I think I'm there)
Anyway, I find much peace in reading your words today...
we all wonder...but it becomes more clear as we keep moving along in life Caroline~
I have been thinking a lot about meditation lately and how I've let it slip from my routine. You have reminded me that it is important because the questions will not be answered but knowledge will come if we sit with eyes closed.
Times of transition ARE tough, Caroline, especially when we feel no answers are in sight. During the times I've experienced this I often think of (and am caressed by) Rilke invitation to "live the questions." Google to find the complete quote - it's quite amazing. Holding you in heart, thought, and prayer as you morph into a butterfly....when the time is right.
These questions run through all of our journeys from time to time; and sometimes daily. These questions in themselves lead me on to find answers that are ever evolving, changing, becoming and at times ever evasive... the playful challenge of life.... questions waiting to be answered, questions waiting to be lived,... questions waiting..... Blessings to you and yours. Love and Light, Nina p
i believe asking those questions and feeling the uncertainty that goes with them is a mark of awareness.
it is good to know i'm not alone in this...
I really like the way you express yourself. I like the way your mind spins thoughts. I would like to invite you over to my 2nd blog, Discovering the Purpose of our Lives...we need your voice. Please think it over...
I think sometime we just have to accept that there are some question that we can't answer, well not today anyway.
Hi Caroline. Again you've made a wonderful serie of pics about yourself and your feelings. Always love to step into your space my friend.
Hugs Dagmar
“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning.” ~ Albert Einstein
I feel it doesn't matter where we are on the "path" as long as we are on it :) You are questioning things, it's great :)
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