The past few days have been really good... I am reading a fantastic book by Jan Lundy (from awake is good) called "Your truest self." To say it's eye opening would not do this book justice. In a nutshell, this book is about finding your spiritual self (your true self that is burried under all the layers of your being). I could not be reading this at a better time. Literally, I looked at myself in the mirror the other day and said: "who am I?" I just stared at my image, I touched my cheek and felt completely empty. Oh boy, I did not like that feeling at all! I have felt too competitive lately...like I need to be doing more or be more successful. I have felt empty and worthless (well, my ego has anyway). As I read through this book, I identify with her words...that as a woman many of us feel the need to be "super." We feel that we must be successful, a good mother, a provider, a care taker, a perfect wife, with a perfect body, etc. And in all that keeping up, what happens to our soul? Where is our true self? It's gets burried until one day we wake up. And I am waking up.
And so I need to seek out my true self. I need to get in touch with my spirtual side...something I have neglected for awhile. I think that is why I have felt lost...because, I have lost my connection to the divine. I am not a church goer...so I follow my own path. Which is not always easy. But I am not comfortable in a church. And that's OK. I have always loved meditation and spirtual music and connecting with my spirit guides through these means. But I have not done this in a long long time. So, today I will make time to re-connect with the divine. And I am really looking forward to this journey...
Wishing you many blessings today.
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The book is here...just in time for the holidays! Click photo to preview.
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Ah Caroline. I have read several of your latest posts. I hear the echo of longing for connection with yourself throughout. I know what it's like to find yourself depleted. May this time of renewal and reconnection be a fruitful one. May your journey bring you joy. :)
Caroline,
So good to read this and hear you are in the midst of really seeking your truest self. It's there...within...I know it. And it's beautiful, and even if you don't always see it - I know that I've witnessed that - and it all shines amazing light in this world - YOU!
And I don't think it matters whether you go to church or not - to be spiritual. We all have different ways of connecting with our deeper self - and I personally think that sometimes, anyway, too many people go to church just for the appearance. And that it's not something deeper. So - what I think really matters, is how each of us make some deeper personal connection with our own spiritual being...and you are doing that...
I wish you much peace and love as you go forth...
I am hoping your journey is an enlightening one.
I love the spiritual as well but am not comfortable in a church anymore. I don't think I ever was.
Your banner popped onto my screen and as your blog was loading I sat and looked at the words simply following my heart, thinking to myself "ahhhhh . . . but that's not all that easy". And then your post was up and yes, I see it's not easy for you either. So much easier to compare ourselves to others who are comparing themselves to others and on and on, and we are too hard on ourselves. Dear Caroline, you are so not empty, so full of wonderful you. Have a fabulous journey to the divine - the roses along the path smell wonderful.
xo
Debi
I'm sure it will be a fulfilling journey. I'm going to look up the Jan Lundy book. It may be just what I need. Thanks Caroline!
that is always a beautiful journey - enjoy it along the way...drink in.
thinking of you
Caroline, I can tell you one thing.... you are meant to be a photographer! This photograph, like all of the others you take, is exceptionally beautiful.
I hope you find some peace and joy today and everyday this week! Take care.
Roban
I think there is spirituality in your art, it always seems so connected with something deeper than surface feelings. . .I feel what you are saying about being disconnected though, may you find the peace you are looking for, God bless!
Hi Caroline, I've just send you a long long mail. And now I've found this. Wonderful. Good for you. And the words are so true. I'm lost myself right now but reading your words I feel I know what to do next. So thanks (AGAIN).
And it's okay not being in church I'm not eigther. Jet following your path is the best remidy with meditation. Rock girl.
Like the waves of the sea, our journey of Life moves forward and retreats always reaching towards the shore of the Devine. We feel we are the ones moving, struggling, trying to "get there"... yet look underneath we are being held by the very thing we are trying to reach. The Devine is under us, holding us. The Devine is in us as we ebb and flow coaching us onward. The Devine works through us as we continue to reach towards the shores of eternity. May you find Peace, Hope, Love, Compassion and Strength of the Devine; in, with and through you today and always. Blessings to you and yours. Love and Light, Nina P
Thanks for the book recommendation. I am passing it on to a niece that says she is feeling spiritually stagnant. I think I could use it too.
I have been having a sort of re-connection myself, so I truly identify with you. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us.
Caroline,
So glad to hear that you are reconnecting with your truest self. Yes! May you do so gently and with the tenderest of gestures. The things you are choosing to do sound wonderful.
And thank you for the reference to my book. It touches my heart so much that you are enjoying it. Truly!
xoxo
I'm glad you are finding ways to fill up your spirit. It is so important. If we don't, it's like a car running on an battered engine.
Of all people, you are one that I would consider very much in touch with your true self and spirituality. Even if that is true, it is important to go through periods, however brief, of self questioning and reflection.
Wishing you peace and blessings too.
Your genuine honesty is so beautiful to witness. You say exactly where you are without pretext. Refreshing in these times when so many revere fakery. I imagine you touching your face and experiencing that empty feeling. I believe that sometimes we need to become fully empty in order to be filled up again with something better to replace it. We clear out the clutter and junk in our souls and physical spaces to refresh and renew them, leaving clear, empty spaces where we can focus our intentions with love. I am wishing you love in all the empty places.
Beautiful photos and touching words, you have a wonderful gift.
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